Everything went well even tak dapat masuk final, semi-final was more than enough. Kita tak target pun untuk menang tahun ni. Project tu cuma terikat dengan agreements as for now, belum run lagi. What do you expect we can do in a couple months? Nak buat floating island bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Terlalu banyak nak buat termasuklah part sinking the aircraft into the water. It is not as simple as that, bawa aircraft tu pergi tepi pantai, angkut atas kapal, dan campak ke laut. Nooo! Project beratus ribu or even juta tak semudah tu. And kita kekurangan man power, then again semua menjadi beban yang berat untuk aku dan diorang. Especially department aku who is responsible to run the project. Team tak sampai 30 orangs, and semua student, benda ni benda baru, we have no experience, we learn and we do and it is nonsense to make it short. In a couple months. No way.
Tahun ni team UUM (Universiti utara Malaysia) Champion, kalahkan pemenang tiga tahun berturut-turut which was UMS (Universiti Malaysia Sarawak). Itu pun dua tahun punya project diorang buat (as I got informed) because we are doing real project, the point is the total of impacted people and how good the project is (how it could help the community). Tak apalah tahun ni tak dapat ke Korea and Beijing. Enactus World Cup tu nanti kat Beijing (aku rasa aku baru bagitahu competition ni adalah Enactus community, kan? Ekekeke). Patutnya kalau kitorang menang dapat hadiah holiday ke Korea and then pegi World Cup kat Beijing. But its fine, aku dah ready untuk kerja keras lagi for next year. Road to South Africa!
Entah macam mana lah next sem aku dipertaruhkan jadi Vice President of the project team. Holy shit! Kalau sekarang jadi macai pun busy, of course lah it would be double when I get higher and higher kan? No I dont think I'll be the Vice President. Aku boleh kerja keras tapi aku belum boleh lagi ke situ.
What makes me to keep writing today is because there is a story that I have to speak it out, even sepatutnya aku kena study for final on this Tuesday. But since this blog is my everything and it could help me to reduce stress, then again I go with it. Semalam and semalamnya lagi aku tak dapat study, kan aku demam, kepala aku sakit, I can do nothing kecuali pergi toilet untuk kencing. Itu pun macam nak jatuh. Dah tu aku susah nak tidur, aku rasa badan aku panas dan sejuk, they mixed together and I felt uncomfortable. But then bila aku dah tidur, still lagi tak tenang. Aku sedar aku banyak bergerak masa tidur, itu tandanya aku stress. Aku termimpi conflict dalam team aku hari tu walaupun benda tu dah habis. How come it made me crazy. Kan aku jenis perfectionist, semua benda nak perfect. So conflict yang aku terbawak ke mimpi tu pasal discussion yang tak berpenghujung, its more like a no dead end debate session. Aku tak suka gitu, discuss kemain and still doesn't get solved. Its really makes me stress.
And worst still, when shit happened...........
Semalam aku minta diri awal, selalunya bila ada masa free aku gagahkan jugak nak teman dia. Yelah kan aku selalu busy kan? Kadang nak berak pun tak sempat. But semalam kepala aku sakit, macam hari sebelumnya. Aku kata nak tidur kejap and kononnya nak bangun balik around 1 or 2 am untuk study, dengan perasaan serba salahnya. Because shes too sweet and sooo loving.
Aku tak rasa orang lain dapat berfikiran waras dalam keadaan macam tu, when you are having terrible headache, tidur dengan keadaan stress etc etc. What you can do? Can you solve a simple mathematics problem in a minute? Absolutely no. But Im going to tell you what actually happened last night........
Alarm phone aku ringing loudly for a couple times, kepala aku sakit, aku abaikan ajelah phone tu. Aku tak celik walaupun aku sedar phone tu berbunyi, aku kena tidur, tapi kalau aku biarkan lagilah aku sakit kepala sebab aku set lagu hardcore. Ekekekeke. Once I wanted to switch it off, keluar notification birthday my princess. Aku langsung tak ingat hari tu hari apa dan berapa hari bulan. Aku excited sangat sangat nak wish konon konon nak jadi the best man, excited bercampur serba salah sebab aku tinggal dia tidur tadinya. Then again aku type birthday wish dalam bahasa inggeris dengan penuh kasih sayang. Poop! It sent~
And what was happened after that, I was sweating a lot! Dari semalam aku cuba make myself sweating tapi tak berjaya. But now, just in a few seconds. Lepas aku sent birthday wish tu. Baru aku ingat. Its not 7th June (which is the date of her birthday), its 31st May. And aku baru ingat aku set 1 week in advance so that aku tak kan lupa dikala aku sibuk and keep aware birthday dia. I want to be the best man. But Im a failure. Im putting myself in that way. It was a silly mistake, masa aku tak sihat, dan terlampau excited. It served me right lah, lain kali fikir betul betul. Kan dah dia suspect bukan bukan. Mesti dia ingat aku salah sent. Aku cuma mentioned 'sayang' konon nak nampak sweet lah, patutnya aku kena letak nama dia baru dia tak suspect kut. Aku tak tahu dah nak explain macam mana. Where else if not my blog? My everything.
Just want to highlight a little bit about me, when I said that I am serious, there is nothing you can say to make it no. A yes is always a yes.
p/s: macam biasa, banyak benda aku nak cerita, nak diumpat, nak digosip, tapi aku tak ada masa. I know there must be someone who used to read this.
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